Being your own judge

As an atheist, I don't believe in a deity. I don't believe in a final judgement in the afterlife that will determine whether I'll suffer in inferno or live eternally in paradise. As such, my morality comes from my own ideals and thinking of whatever repercussions will happen due to my actions.

Personally, I make my own moral code as consistent as possible. What I hate the most is being branded as a hypocrite, not by others, but by myself. Before I subject myself to the judgment of others, I judge myself. I am my own police, my own judge, my own jury, and my own executioner. Who else can better bear witness to your actions other than yourself?

But even this kind of morality is hard to apply. I criticize myself rather harshly, berating myself for being inconsistent, hating hypocrisy.

For those who subscribe to religion, all they have to do to be forgiven is pray to their deity and poof! The sin goes away just like magic. Wash, rinse, and repeat. No need to be held accountable. You'll be rewarded in heaven as long as you repent, may it be on your deathbed or on the gallows.

There is always room for hypocrisy. Get yourself in a moral predicament? No worries! Just find a passage in the scripture that's contradictory to what you used to believe and stick with that. Anti-gay? The Bible has passages that can be interpreted to be against homosexuality. Pro-gay? Pick passages about indiscriminate love for all. Anti-abortion? Sanctity of life! Pro-abortion? Numbers 5:27.

For someone like me who doesn't believe in this codified hypocrisy, I seek out my own mentally codified set of rules, constantly amending any errors and inconsistencies. Any guilt I feel will be embedded deep into my mind, unwashed and unforgiven. I'm a cripple refusing to lean on the crutch of scripture.

I am incapable of fully forgiving myself. I am a flawed human being and I don't need a deity to tell me that.

Spices

I don't dislike the dubstep but I used to be a fan of the original dubstep genre before the it became a very popular. With the advent of Skrillex and the divergence of what dubstep purists call "brostep", I wondered and asked myself "What is in dubstep / brostep that people like?" Though it isn't wrong to say that a lot of people don't like the genre because of its noise aspect. But I was inclined to think that this very aspect is what attracted its fans.

Before listening to dubstep, I've heard some extreme noise subgenre samples like Merzbow. For someone new to it, I found it harsh to my ears but eventually, I took a liking to it (though, I don't listen to it very often like I would if I truly enjoyed it).

So what about this noise? A few people like brostep and even fewer can appreciate the pure essence of "noise". Obviously, it's a matter of preference but I see it somewhat differently. People can only tolerate "noise" in small amounts and can't take it once the level has been raised. The noise aspect in brostep spices up the music but brostep fans who dislike the noise genre can't tolerate its pure form. They still need the electronica aspect of the music in order to listen to the "bass drops" they like.

Usually, the final step in cooking is to adjust for seasoning to see if it is to your taste. A dash of salt and some spices would be enough for that final step. Different people like varying degrees of seasoning. But when asked to ingest the spices in their pure form, they choke and spit the spices out. Their taste buds are too weak to ingest it. They still need the rest of the "normal" ingredients to eat the spices they like.

This "spicy" way of thinking can be applied to many aspects in life. One being the lifetime favorite: religion.

When turning into an agnostic, people begin to question their faiths and seek whatever is beyond. In my perspective, those who stay agnostic theist simply took a half-hearted step into agnosticism instead of taking one step further into atheism. Similar to the noise and the spice, these people are too weak and too afraid to embrace the fact. Afraid, they stubbornly stand in the middle of the road or they find convert back into theism, albeit a different religion/sect. No offense to those who prefer to remain agnostic theist - this is just what I think you're doing.

I like my life with salt and a few dashes of pepper, sometimes with habanero hot sauce.

Higher Dimensional Being

I'll go a bit deistic for this post.

Imagine a flat 2D universe on, say, a piece of paper. A resident of that universe, say, a stickman, would only be able to move in two dimensions only with movements such as up, down, left, and right. In his universe there is no forward or backward. It can't visualize the thought of an extra dimension the same way we can't visualize four. Forwards or backwards is impossible for two dimensions but we in three dimensions can do that pretty easily. Our daily lives involve moving in three dimensions.

Let's say you look at this piece of paper the stickman calls his universe. Anywhere he looks and anywhere he goes, you can see the stickman. No matter what the stickman does, it cannot escape you. To him, you could be considered omnipresent. Even if the stickman encloses itself in a square house, four "walls" would mean nothing to you.

It cannot fathom the simplest of things you are able to do. The ideas of "forward" and "backward" are, to it, very stunning and revolutionary. You would probably shrug it off like nothing but to it, you are everything. All it can see of you are your fingerprints.

We cannot turn our backs on a 4-dimensional being. Think about higher dimensions. No matter where we face, it can see us.

We cannot even notice the beings in our own dimension. What are worms and ants thinking about? DO they even realize that humans exist? Would they fathom the concepts of "capitalism", "mersenne primes", "neutrinos", or "skyscrapers"? No, they don't. Even if we give them the information, they wouldn't be able to understand it.

How the fuck can anyone even think that a being from a higher dimension would give a fuck about abortion, homosexuality, or pre-marital sex?

Pushy Hypocrites

There comes a time when a christian would damn someone, telling him to "Go to hell" for his atrocities towards the christian god. Fred Phelps and his Westboro Baptist followers are undeniable examples of this but there are also some less extreme christians with minds of temperamental 16-year-olds who say the phrase without meaning it... Or sometimes actually meaning it.

So they're the polar opposites of well-wishers, wishing instead for a person's eternal punishment. When atheists like George Carlin and Christopher Hitchens died, there's the typical "He is now in hell" send-off. One thing is clear: they expect people to be sent to hell.

Though, if they really expect people to be sent to hell, then why do they have to try to mess with their lives and push their "values" unto them? If they're pretty much okay with condemning someone, why can't they just simply leave them alone? They're going to hell (so they say). They're gonna live their afterlives in hell anyway so why not just let them live their "sinful" lives in peace?

If they seriously cared for a person's afterlife, they wouldn't wish for his eternal punishment - not that I believe in any of that bullshit.

Suicide

Like murder, suicide is also taboo. The traditional Catholic way of thinking condemns those who have committed suicide, saying that it will automatically send them to hell without any chance of salvation. However, more recent Catholic ways of thinking state that one shouldn't condemn suicide victims but should be prayed for. Indeed, that is a better thing to do than flat-out damnation but still, I'm not really a fan of prayer.

Most people commit suicide due to mental instability and thus, have lost control of their rational minds. Others who do it with a rational mind, however, have stronger feelings than just being unwanted and unloved. Take for instance the Japanese soldiers who commit the honorable seppuku or the atrocious kamikaze. Muslim terrorists also commit suicide with bombs and take the lives of others with them in the name of their god. That being said, people usually think "Is there really no way for an act of suicide to be moral and just?" In fact, there are.

Picture this scenario: Two hikers were walking on a rope bridge when the bridge suddenly snapped. Hiker A was luckily able to hang on to Hiker B's leg but the latter was not strong enough to pull them both up and both of them will eventually fall. Hiker A decided to let go because he thought that it would be better if at least one of them had lived.

Suicide that leads to a better good is just. Anything that leads to a greater good is always just. The end doesn't always justifty the means, but in cases like heroic suicide, it does.

"Thou shalt not kill" is bullshit

Murder has always been a taboo subject since it is the act of taking the life of another human being. Truly, it is a bad thing, but there are times when the act of murder is the most moral thing to do in certain situations. Humans have realized this and act accordingly but the moral stencil brought by the god of Moses known as the Ten Commandments (ironically) prevents us from making these moral decisions based on our own judgment.

Euthanasia is justifiable. Comfort is always preferrable to pain and for extreme pain and suffering, one will need extreme comfort, even if it means death. The only real decision to make is whether the sufferer is past his/her suffering threshold that euthanasia would be the only escape. Take Terri Schiavo for example. In that situation, the only two choices are more suffering for her and her loved ones... or euthanasia.

Revenge is a bit tricky but it still can be justifiable. Some revenge murderers have been set free while others were punished. It all depends on the gravity of the situation. In revenge, the murderer actually prevents further atrocities by killing the perpetrator.

Survival is justifiable. Self-defense is the most common example of this. But there are also life-or-death choices when limited resources are at stake; the death of some will ensure the survival of the rest and inversely, choosing for everyone to live will make everyone suffer or (ironically) die.

Laws are the foundation of society but there will be situations where one should decide for himself. With a critical and compassionate mind, humans can make the right decision when faced with this predicament.

Indulging in Materialistic Pleasures

I don't understand why some hardcore conservative Christians (or conservatives of any other religion) refuse to give in to their materialistic desires. I do understand that indulging too much in material pleasures isn't a good thing but to willingly discard even the slightest thoughts of it... that I do not understand.

They claim that their god had created and fine-tuned this world for all humans to enjoy. If they shun the material world, they're spitting on the face of the one who provided the world for them. If they argue that shunning the material world will cleanse their souls for the path to heaven, then what is the sense of god having to create and "fine-tune" a world in the first place?

What I don't like about conservatives is that they impose their boring lifestyle upon others who are having reasonable fun. In other words, killjoy.

I don't believe in gods or heaven. I believe that humans are a part of nature, not rising above from it. Partaking what the world has to offer is human instinct.

Why a Massacre is Needed

Children in some countries in Africa are growing malnourished with some even starving to death. Some of the more powerful nations reach out to the impoverished and provide them with their necessities which will only satiate them for a small amount of time. Once their supplies run out, those nations will have to provide for them again.

With the worldwide human population growing along with the scarcity of food, at this rate, everyone will starve to death, not only those in Africa, but the whole world. We will have to pick a post-apocalyptic ending for ourselves, the most likely one being "Soylent Green".

Killing these impoverished people off not only reduces the demand for food, but it will also ease their suffering. So-called "moral" people will think that the act of killing is immoral but why is it immoral? Must we wait for everyone to starve before we take action? Isn't killing off suffering people an act of mercy rather than barbarism?

What if humans can see into the future?

Humans, some of them at least, have dreamed to be able to see into the future. History tells us that humans in the ancient times had been fixated in knowing the future: oracles of Delphi, the Norns, the prophets in the Abrahamic religions, and even until today. These so-called fortune-tellers and soothsayers dedicate their time (or maybe even their lives) to impart amongst the common humans the knowledge of the future. This act is regarded by the modern age as a lie or a mere hobby, but what if humans can actually see into the future?

Adherents of the horoscope hobby merely match up any events to the vague prophecy if hearing the prophecy comes later. Since horoscopes are made to be vague, there is a large enough chance that some event in the person's day is coincidentally similar to the prophecy. However, if the hearing the prophecy comes first, it might as well become a self-fulfilling prophecy when the adherent uses it as a guide to his life.

But what if humans can actually see into the future? If there is only a fixed future (a prophecy wherein foreseen events cannot be changed), then they will have to act accordingly and whatever action they do to act against this destiny will still coincide with the prophecy, like the story of Oedipus Rex. If the visions granted are those of possible futures, the adherent will just pick the one that is most desirable and follow the steps that leads to that outcome.

In this world where humans can see into the fixed future, the concepts of risk, accident, prevention, precaution, choice, chance, luck, et cetera will be abolished. They will be thrown into complacency and helplessness since decision-making will also be discarded. Any emergencies that will occur won't. They will literally have no choice but to follow their unchangeable destinies.

But if that had been since the beginning, life in that world would be linear and monotonous. "Development" and "progress" will also be illusions since they're predetermined. In that world, games and adventures don't exist; their fun must be derived somewhere inconceivable in this world.

However, in the scenario of humans being able to see possible futures, they will have to live in a meta-life instead of the actual life. Instead of deciding what choices to make in a real life situation, decision will be escalated into choosing what possible future will be more desirable. Life itself would be meaningless since the focus is shifted to religiously choosing futures; since humans will be fixated in the future, they will forget to live in the present.

In all honesty, I can't see why humans are fixated in knowing future events supernaturally when living life is more fun when you are fixated in the present and oblivious to an extent to what will happen to the future. A subjective view, yes, but I'm talking from the side of beings that live in a world where premonition is impossible. Aren't we all?

Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero.

Failure to live in the present

Mankind, in general, is obsessed with the infinite, as I had said in my previous rants. What else can be more virtually infinite than time itself?

People are obsessed with the future. A child is guaranteed a "good future" by his parents and as he grows up, he strives hard to ensure a future for himself and his descendants. Not that there is anything wrong with that, is there? Actually, there is.

The future is a big uncertainty and with uncertainty comes fear. This phobia sends humans into a frenzy that they focus on nothing else but that fear. Instead of overcoming that fear, it turns into some sort of obsessive-compulsive disorder. To put it simply, as humans live their lives in ensuring a future, they fail to live in the present.

I'm not saying that planning is a bad thing. It's just that humans forget the purpose of life, which is to be lived and enjoyed, not to be wasted on a goal that can't be reached. The future will always be the future; once you move forward, the present becomes past and the future becomes present.

But ahead of you is still another future. Man must not become fixated in living in the future. Instead, man must let the future come to him so that he still lives in the present.

The present is now. There wouldn't be tomorrow if you don't live today. Carpe diem.

A Piece of Paper

Life starts out as a blank piece of paper.

The Christian, having an idea, thought that it is best to be plane tickets for a vacation in Heaven. So he did. The Christian then gave the tickets and rode the plane. He was happy.

The Atheist, however, thought that it is best to be a land title for a large plot of land that he can do anything in. So he did. The Atheist never gave his land title to anyone. In his land, he found happiness in planting, farming, and enjoying the warm breeze and gazing at the stars.

Plane tickets or Land titles? Apparently, most atheists give more value to life than most christians. Ironic, isn't it?

"Keep moving forward", they say

People are different. The masses merely dictate what definitions are and instill these onto their children and punish them if they resist. "Keep moving forward", they say.

What if someone from all that mass of humans turns the other way and starts walking? Certainly, the opposite direction isn't "forward" for the mass moving in the "normal direction" but for that person, he is definitely moving forward.

Success is a very subjective term, especially for people who have different concepts and standards. One man's trash can be another man's treasure. If you offer another person your path, you may be casting pearls before swine or something like that.

Defiance isn't totally a bad thing. In fact, defiance plays a very important role in the nature of humans, which is to seek knowledge. If you consider defiance evil, then I guess you should blindly follow orders like a puppet.

Perfection is Constant Free-fall

"Practice makes perfect. Since nobody is perfect, why should we practice?" - This is a popular philosophical quote made from conjoining two opposite quotes. Quite a nice juxtaposition, isn't it?

I don't have a real answer to that, though, but I do have another statement. "We are already perfect." Surely, someone would say that we aren't living in a perfect world. A perfect world would look better than this one.

Living comes with the irony that we strive to attain this so-called perfection despite not being able to actually reach it. Some people simply fall into despair upon realizing this. The sky isn't the limit anymore for humans. If it isn't, what is? There is no limit. There is no "perfection".

Imagine, if we actually attain the perfection we seek, what would become of us? If we obtain the answer to everything, if we attain immortality, if we attain absolute happiness, what would happen? Nothing would happen next. There would be no more room for life and no meaning to existence.

We are already living in perfection. This is the perfect world. People strive for the future and fail to live in the present. Every step further towards the future, what we stand on today is the present, no matter what happens. All the benefits we have encountered will always be balanced out by misfortune and vice versa. No matter how far a human makes progress, there will always be room for more. The human being might not be perfect by itself but human life is already perfect, no matter how it is lived.

Perfection is flawed. Conversely, flaws are perfection. Perfection is mediocrity. Mediocrity is perfection. It is our flaws in existence that make us perfect, in a way many people fail to realize. It is like gravity pulling you both ways - constant free-fall. You feel like falling into one side but you're never actually falling.

What is a soul? Really...

"You don't have a soul. You are a Soul. You have a body" - C.S. Lewis

Let's assume that the above statement is pure fact. When we die, we, as souls, supposedly leave our bodies. Let's also assume this as fact. Our bodies possess five basic senses: sight, hearing, touch, smell, and taste. There are other senses but let's just stick with these five that we are most familiar with.

Since we discard our bodies upon death (or upon astral projection or something like that), it is only logical that we also lose input from our five senses. Moreover, we also lose our ability to think, since our brains are part of our body. So if we leave our bodies, what would we feel? Or better yet, what would we sense? Or even better yet, what would we be thinking?

We only gain an interface in the material world as long as we are connected to our bodies. If we lose our bodies, it would be like a computer without any peripherals. No monitor, speakers, keyboard, mouse, RAM cards, processors, etc. So basically, we're just left with just the motherboard. How on earth can you operate a computer like that?

This concept conflicts with the idea of reincarnation wherein memories are passed on with the soul from one body to another. Memories are stored in the brain, and the brain dies and decays with the rest of the body.

I think that the bare soul alone is conscious somehow. It is a mere consciousness that can't see or feel or even think. It just exists and is conscious; it's some sort of strange energy.

Some stories (including the bible) and especially some emo sayings state that a soul can be inflicted with pain and suffering. If that is the case, how exactly? I guess it would be a pain in the... uhh... consciousness?

Eternal Life = Overrated

Long ago, humans don't actually fear death itself; they fear being forgotten. The civilizations of old believed that they can put a stopper on death. Ancient Egyptians, ancient Chinese, Native Americans, Hindu mythology, and even Christianity had all been urged to live for but one cause: eternal life or life after death.

Uncertainty has always been a problem, especially for the ancient people who had made up stuff to stop people from panicking. The people, knowing nothing else to believe in, took everything as truth: hook, line, and sinker. They believed in salvation after death. Regardless of the conditions, they all aim for this.

Thinking about it, what would be in store for humans if ever they achieve immortality? Nothing really. They'd just live longer. After that? You'd be so sick of life that you would beg for death.

Imagine playing a game that you know you can't lose. It would be fun at first but after exhausting all possible areas, it would be repetitive, not just once or twice, but a million times over. Moreover, you would have a serious case of procrastination due to the assurance that you would be able to do it before you die - because you can't die.

Surely, you can do the things you couldn't have done if you're capable of dying: do extensive research, master several martial arts, rule the world. But once you're immortal, nothing will drive you to do these things. Your basic survival instincts would've already shattered. You wouldn't need to eat, sleep, work... You wouldn't feel the need to do pretty much anything, even for loved ones.

Let's face it. Immortality is but a mere fantasy. Everything is transient. We all live because we all will have to die someday. If we are to aim for something as we live, isn't it always better to live for the sake of living?

To live is to die. If you won't die, you're pretty much like an inanimate object.

Self-fulfilling Instinct

By instinct, humans have acted upon selfishness. Man lives to feed himself, satisfy himself, fulfill himself, pleasure himself. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Every action made would still lead to the fulfillment of oneself.

A person prays to his god for the the betterment of his family, blessings for his children, peace for his world. Even if he wishes for the welfare for people completely unrelated to him, it will still give him a sense of fulfillment and self-satisfaction. There is no denying that.

But selfishness where the only beneficiary is the self is considered evil by human morals. Not wanting to share, ignoring beggars, greed, lust, gluttony... Why? Selfishness just took on a different form.

There is no such thing as absolute selflessness. You desire to do something for others. Selfless selfishness? Selfish selflessness? Humans are built with the instinct to pursue his own happiness. It just so happens that for some people, happiness comes from helping others.

Declaring people that pursue their own happiness without affecting others evil... That concept just tips the scales. The majority had instilled into themselves the idea that nobody has the right to become selfish.

Humans live for themselves. Humans are individuals. Humans are not born to follow a general consensus - they're born to pursue happiness, regardless of whether their pursuit adheres to the consensus or not.

Selfishness isn't evil. It's just human instinct.

Wings of Wax

For millennia, humans have envied other animals that can fly, birds to be more precise. Wings have fascinated humans everywhere. In popular Greek Mythology, we learn of the story of an inventor named Daedalus who made wings to escape into the sky with his son Icarus. In history, we learn of the daring exploits of the Wright brothers and their attempts to make an airplane. Ancient South American civilizations even worship a winged serpent named Quetzalcoatl. Flight has been a dream of the human race since the beginning.

Like most ambitions, once one is fulfilled, another begins. When man gained the ability to fly, they wanted to soar higher - so they did. They reached great heights people from a thousand years ago never thought of. The adage "The sky is the limit" seems obsolete today because mankind had reached beyond the known limit. Every finish line is the starting line of yet another race.

As humans continue to soar, they express desire for more. They draw pictures of humans with bird-like wings, angels as they are called. Somewhat beheld like perfect, angels have spread in culture, set like some unreachable goal. As with all humans, they live in pursuit of their goal, not the goal itself. Envisioning oneself as a human capable of flight is indeed an uplifting habit a typical person does. Dreams of flight seem to be the anti-thesis of a nightmare.

But with all flight, one needs to land. One cannot fly across the skies forever. That is the only thing about flight most humans fear: landing. It's either you land or you crash down. The sinking feeling during flight in a dream can spell a nightmare. In the story of Daedalus, Icarus strayed too far from his father and went to the sun like a moth to the flame. In the end, the sun destroyed Icarus' wings, causing his death. But landing doesn't seem to exist in a human's point of view, since human flight had defeated the purpose of the finish line.

Soaring until we die - it seems like a miserable fate for us humans to have. It would be better to keep our feet on the ground, literally and figuratively. If ever we feel the need to fly, fly where you know you can land safely.

... Or crash on the ground headfirst.

What is Luck?

What is Luck?

1. the seemingly chance happening of events that affect someone; fortune; fate
2. good fortune; success, prosperity, advantage, etc.
3. an object believed to bring good luck

Really now... What is Luck?

Say there's a bus accident and out of the thirty passengers on the bus, only one survived. Many would say he's lucky since he survived while the others died, but is he really lucky? If he's really lucky, the tragedy wouldn't have happened in the first place.

Say you're a poor kid living in the slums of some rundown city. By some random chance, you happen to meet a rich kid who tells you about himself. He tells you about how his parents gave him good food, clothes, and education yet lack quality family time. You compare it with your own life and realize that you're lucky to have a loving family despite the hardship. But if you're really lucky, you wouldn't be in the slums in the first place.

Say you're the child of someone who has a weak heart. Your father dies in his sleep, rather than suffering in agony. You consider him lucky that he escaped suffering. But if he's really lucky, he wouldn't have had a weak heart in the first place.

The word "luck" seems to be forced into seemingly good situations that are surrounded by a large chance of a bad. But that isn't good fortune at all. Such absurdity...

Luck doesn't seem to work that way so let's redefine it. "Luck is success, prosperity, advantage, etc. in a specified set." "Luck is partial immunity (to some degree) of strife."

Say you're a perfectly normal human in the planet. Everyday, every hour, every minute, and every second, out of the billions of humans in the world, a handful dies, a bunch is stricken with disease, a handful are drowning in poverty, and almost everyone has experienced misfortune... save for yourself. That's the only instance where you should be the luckiest person in the world.

Everyone's lucky... in a way.

Light is Cursed

"Let there be light," as said in the Book of Genesis. Yes, light is essential in our daily lives but other references state otherwise.

The fallen angel Lucifer's name literally translates to "light bearer". He is cursed, banished from God's realm, never to set foot on Heaven's Gates again. If he's the bearer of God's first creation, why banish him?

In Greek Mythology, the titan Prometheus gave humans the gift of fire. After that, he was bound to a rock by Zeus and let his liver be feasted upon by a bird of prey everyday for eternity.

Why curse them? Had they done anything wrong? They brought light to humans; light which is very essential to human living. If they did anything, humans enjoyed it and lived with it for a long time to the present time. What's the big deal?

Without light, humans and most creatures are rendered helpless. But the light stated here may not be light in its literal sense. Light means knowledge, hence "enlightenment". Even in its altered sense, this light is still essential to human living.

Lucifer and Prometheus defied the one in charge of the world, God (or Zeus). They brought to humans the light of knowledge. Lucifer, tempted the humans to eat from the tree so they can attain enlightenment. Why is it bad?

God probably wanted us to be in eternal bliss. Since Ignorance is bliss, he didn't want humans to attain the Power of Knowledge.

I can say this for sure though: If god does exist, he has no power over us. He is absolutely not omnipotent. Same with Lucifer. Humans have the power to choose between Knowledge and Ignorance. That is free will. If we would be grateful to some spiritual entity, we should thank Lucifer for giving us the gift of Light.

Upon choosing the Curse of Light, we, as enlightened ones, shall suffer. Suffer what? Suffer the responsibility of this wisdom. Knowledge is Power. With power comes responsibility.

Spiritual entities aside, it is our choice if we head back into the Bliss of Darkness or the Light of Knowledge. As with all dualities and mediocrities, we should all head to the middle, where we can savor the pursuit of knowledge while leading a blissful life.

Hatred

Hatred.

Usually, when someone does you harm, hatred ensues. The feeling of wanting to inflict harm against another person, the eager wishing of misfortune befalling that person.

But... Have you ever got the feeling of hating someone who hadn't really done anything to you? I know I do. One time, I just saw this person's face and anger suddenly rushed through my mind. That person didn't even know me and vice versa but I can't easily shake the feeling off. This ill feeling can be maddening at times.

But I also think... Someone could also be hating me as well with no real reason. I'm not really being paranoid but of the hundred people I see everyday, there is bound to be one who hates me. This cycle of hatred is bound to happen. It's natural. All humans feel the feeling of hate.

It's rather strange to know that a person's mere existence can cause this much conflict for various reasons. Someone sneezed and someone else caught the disease. Someone walked and accidentally stepped on someone else's foot. Walking, bumping against another's shoulder. Talking loudly and unknowingly annoying another. Unknowingly inciting envy, jealousy, fear, anger... hatred.

By the time you have existed, you are forcibly thrust to this never ending cycle. Once you're in, you can never go out. The only way to prevent being thrust in the cycle is to have hid your existence from the world... or to have never had existed at all in the beginning.

We all live in a world of hatred. Chauvinists, Sexists, Racists, your next door neighbor, the next person you brush shoulders with, or even someone you have never even seen before...